Katalina
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Post by Katalina on Jun 15, 2018 15:50:51 GMT
*smiling at halcion after a nod to Kalon* "thank you for the offer Halcion and the concern. I know *winks* that my father and ancimir ahve already told you of my rage and almost complete loss of control. But I have already spoken to my father about the past and on the matters of the heart. I pray to Bahamut often, especially when I am unsure and worried about what actions to take. It seems that when I simply react with my instincts there is less confusion and indecision, start to think to much and problems seem to arise. When Lyri was held and you took those few moments to try and prepare...sometimes you have to grab the lion by it's tail and pull for all your worth. *laughs* I wouldnt try it with Ryna tho But Kalon is right about killing, how long is it since we took stock of where we have been and what we have done? something my father tried to make me understand and to warn me about, it is only just started to dawn on me the smallest fraction of what he has tried to help me understand. I also like to think that I fight the good fight, protect those that need it and deal death to those who deserve it. But regardless of reasons, the way it is done or even why....*stares to the north once more* who here can say how many lives they have taken?  |
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Post by Halcion on Jun 21, 2018 11:55:51 GMT
You speak truly I should have acted faster and in this I failed. It won't happen again. Thinking of what we have fought and the troubles we have gotten into. There have been many positives. There have been times when we could have chosen to simply bear our steel and kill but we haven't. Life is a long road one where mistakes happen its whether you chose to learn from them or repeat them over and over again. Sometimes you need to harness your emotions sometimes use them. It's learning when that is always hard.
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Post by Kalon on Jun 21, 2018 23:45:58 GMT
*kalon smiles*
"Yes i do somewhat despise the gods. What do they need to worry about me though. I hope we can all learn well from our mistakes. I certainly am trying too"
*kalon looks over to halcion*
"what would be your biggest mistake or regret then sir halcion of torm? Before we knew you that is"
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Post by Halcion on Jun 22, 2018 11:43:12 GMT
My biggest regret is that I am estranged from my family. I feel alone sometimes cut off from them because I wanted to learn. My people are still very much suspicious of the outside world. We have those who are specially trained to deal with the outside world I was not one of those people. I wanted to learn and grow. So have been outcast from my people. I will have to one day return to my people and bring news and try to rally them to the plight of what is about to come to our world. I have had no news of my family since I left my home and I worry for them I pray to aierdrie that she keeps them safe. I just wish I knew they were.
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Post by Halcion on Jun 22, 2018 11:44:04 GMT
I dared to question the way of things and that is the reason I was made an outcast
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Post by Halcion on Jun 22, 2018 11:44:55 GMT
I miss my home and my people. It has been a lonely path
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Post by Wren on Jun 22, 2018 12:18:59 GMT
Hearing Halcion talk of his estrangement from his family and from his people pulled Wren from her reverie. She had been sitting quietly only half listening to the others conversation, too lost in her own thoughts to truly pay attention. With so much happening she had not had time to deal with the change in her own situation. The initial shock of regaining her memories had abated but in it's place was a deep pain and an emptiness that she had no idea how to fill. Never even in her worst nightmares had she expected her life to have been what she had seen in those visions and what now constantly plagued her mind, she was dishonoured to such an extent that it took great willpower to continue living each moment. Katalina worried that she was a murderer and clearly wrestled with past memories and Wren understood this all too well. She was a murderer, had committed great acts of evil and had taken pleasure in bringing harm to others. She had broken Bushido so completely and was as far from a Samurai now as was possible.
Not only that but she was as much an exile from her people as Halcion, when she did eventually return to right wrongs and face her own shame and dishonour she knew that she would not be welcomed. He was right, it was a lonely path one in which she never forgot how different she was from everyone else.
"You are still alive Halcion and so still have the chance one day to return to your people and make peace with them. Though estranged from them now you are not so dishonoured that that opportunity is forever denied to you." Wren said quietly with an edge in her voice. Though calm as always there was a hint of regret in her tone.
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Katalina
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Post by Katalina on Jun 23, 2018 6:47:41 GMT
Halcion, I can relate to some of that. I wanted to head out and explore the world away from the Airie, as much I loved it there and the precious times with my father. It is sad that hey have made you outcast for wanting to follow your heart, I hope when you return they can see some sense to understanding your desire. Not to mention warning of them of what could be even darker days ahead, I wonder if Lyri could scry on them for you *looks over to Lyri with a raiseed eyebrow*
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Post by Halcion on Jun 25, 2018 11:57:13 GMT
Wren I understand you are troubled by what you found out in the tower. But from what I understand you're actions were not entirely of you're own free will. You have a choice seek atonement for your actions. Find a way to expunge those acts from you're honour I see it is something you cling to. And then ultimately restore your honour. Or allow yourself to become that which you were once. I sense this is not the case. I know nothing of your code.
In the eyes of many of my people I am a disgrace, it is hard to reconcile a people who were almost wiped out. There is a great fear and that is hard for them to let go off.
I will return home one day for they must know what is yet to happen
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